On New Years Day, my mom asked my siblings and me a question. “What was the best thing that happened in 2016?”
My answer was, “That it ended.”
I could blame my bad attitude that morning on any number of things like sleep depravation or how sick I had been all week. But the truth is, my answer was a direct reflection of my heart.
From September to the end of the year, 2016 was filled to the brim with so much stuff. Hard stuff. One thing after another, after another. Like, when it rains, it pours. And it just kept pouring. And I get that my hard in no way compares to other people’s hard, or the horrendous things happening all over the world. But that’s not the point. What I felt immediately after my bratty answer (sorry, mom) was a deep conviction.
I say that I trust but do I really? I want to, but when things start to snowball, my faith is fickle. Instead of fully trusting in the One I claim to lean on for everything, I had allowed the circumstances of the past few months to keep me in a place of bitterness and self pity.
The truth is, 2016 was actually pretty amazing! God moved our hearts towards adoption from South Korea. We met deadlines, we raised much needed funds, we were blessed with not one, but all four adoption grants we applied for! We found a new church family and, subsequently, amazing new friends. And even in the midst of the hard, we were taken care of, provided for, and protected by people that God used along the way and also in ways that I am sure we will never even know.
So here we are, nine days into 2017. I didn’t make any new years resolutions. Rather, my focus this year is to TRUST.
My beautiful friend wrote a great new year’s blog post in which she talked about the “My One Word” experiment and I knew immediately what my word for 2017 should be.
I’ve been hearing God whisper the word to me for months. In fact, one of the things I asked for for Christmas was this necklace, custom made by a friend who is in the process of adopting from Haiti. The lyrics are from a song that’s been playing on repeat on my phone and in my mind, and speaking to my heart, for the past couple of months. The main point of the song, TRUST.
So let go, my soul
and trust in him
the waves and wind
still know his name
So, here’s to you, 2016! Thanks for being awesome! As for 2017, my resolve is to truly trust and, in all circumstances say, “It Is Well.”